I'm sorry. And I'm a liar.
You all seem to think I'm a giod person, that I'm... worthwhile. I'm not. In London, I worked with oathbreakers and timberwolves, lrt them experiment and kill because I needed their help. I've sold runners out to proxies and timberwolves out to rinners, and I've killed inoocent people time and again. thwn o put on a smule, blogged about the good things, played at beinh decent. I'm a fucking fraud. When they broke mu leg, I deserved evry goddamn moment.
The axoth won't let me kill mydelf. Nothing so simple. I sent Deimos my location. This safehouse is full of ebery bomb I have. One way or the other, this ends.
Maybe there's something beyond, with Jeff and Pascal and Jinn. You've got to have hope, right?
Veigar, I owe you so damn much, but I was never coming back from this. Sent everything I could find on Bill. Hope it helps.
Sanna, sorry things ended like this. I know you can get through this, live the life you wanted. Please.
Sam, I left skin cells, blood samples, parts of my diary. Same place as that first book on the cold ones. Might be useful.
Linux, if you're reading this. Good luck.



  1. Come on man, there's gotta be another way. Any other way. Don't do this to yourself. I don't care what you did, I'm friends with a necrophiliac FFS.

  2. And just like that, another piece falls. Sad, sad, what happened to you people? Giving up like that. Disappointing.

  3. It doesn't matter to me what you've done because I've done worse, a lot of us has.

    But it's your decision and I respect that.

    Goodbye my friend


  4. it's all a matter of perspective. those people could have possibly been the next worse thing for us all to deal with. it's not your fault.

  5. You dumbass, you can't just go out like this. Come on what about all the times you've encouraged others to survive, and now you just want to die? Do you really want to be remembered in your last minutes as a hypocrite? So what if you've had to do some less than moral things to survive, hell we all have, and so did those people you sold out. Sounds even to me. What matters iss that you took care of your friends so fuck everyone else. You don't deserve to die for that. Moral of the story is I better see more post from you pHIL Mcdonald.

  6. No ones perfect. And I'm sure a lot of others have done similar things just to survive. You don't need to go all emo about it.